here didn’t change anything. We had a ton of drinks and at some point I evidently offended one of the street urchins. Sandy had to do her best to calm the situation and really I don’t know what I was thinking. It’s never a good idea to heckle a people when they outnumber you, like, ten million to one. Seeing her out here living her dream was great though and it was quite the city to be doing it in. San Francisco was somewhere everyone wanted to be. Everything from the cable cars to the bridges all the way to the sea lions that seemed to live on the pier made the city a unique and exciting place. Really though, I never understood what kept people from doing what they wanted. I suppose there was something to be said for not getting too reckless since throwing caution to the wind can put you in a corner where you have no choice but to do something you really don’t want to do…like sleep in your car. Still, as much as the security of a job and a place to sleep at night makes someone want to cling onto those things, at some point it becomes more about what you want to be doing rather than what you are doing. Right? Or are more people content to have a goal in their lives that they consciously or unconsciously know will never be fulfilled? I guess there are no answers
Different things motivate different people, and for some just the concept of what their life could be or should be is enough to keep them from leading the life they might be leading. We talked about life and what we were doing with ourselves and she seemed to support my decision to just get up and go. She was a few years older than me and as such was even more reflective about life in general. Her job situation and relationship status were both up in the air, but she was fine with all of it. She was doing what she wanted to be doing and she had her head up about everything. Although she always did. It was odd because while we had both thrown caution to the wind and just got up and did what we wanted, she was doing something that she really believed in, while I was just doing this just to do it. And that was an issue, as far as I was concerned. I suppose there has to be some kind of balance or between risk and security. But really there never is. A person either goes for it or
they don’t. I can see why people want to cling to what they have in their lives. And I can see why people are willing to risk all they have for something more. It’s all a process as we try to figure out exactly what we are and what we should be doing with ourselves. Although in different ways, we had both given everything over to the risk. Would we end up regretting our decision? I suppose there was just as much chance for either of us. She had to get going to work but I wanted to check out more of the city because I really did like it here. There certainly were a lot of things to see but just walking around the city you could get a sense of