I was so all over the place that I even called up one of my oldest friends to vent and see what he had to say when I was supposed to be relaxing and getting away from everything. Of course, Adam was the most useless of all but truthfully, none of them told me anything I didn’t already know. It was just a question of whether or not I was ready to deal with such realities. My biggest issue with leaving was that everywhere and anywhere else felt like such a step down. Los Angeles had so many different things to see and do. Important people lived here. There were famous landmarks and buildings everywhere you looked. Things happened here. Living in LA really makes you feel like you’re a part of something special, even if by definition, you aren’t. That was why my siblings came out to visit. Sure, seeing me was a part of it, but the reality is that Los Angeles was something to see and experience and they knew it. My sisters and brother had never been to California so they soaked in the atmosphere for all it was worth even as they were dealing with big events in their own lives. My sister was still working out exactly what she wanted to do with herself. She was very private and like me in a lot of ways. I had a tendency to flip out and go a little bit nuts on various occasions for various reasons but I never saw her act like that. She was much sweeter and more even keeled than me yet the things that annoyed me about LA were the same reasons she said she could never live here and her skin burnt
too easily to even think about it. She had transferred a couple times in college and that along with the fact she hadn’t really chosen a major really bothered my parents. She moved at her own pace and everyone either had to comply with that, completely cut her out of their life or go insane. My parents seemed to jump from one choice to the other on a regular basis but they always said she was too cute to stay angry at. If only that would have worked for me when I was her age. My baby sister was entering her last year of college and as such had a lot on her mind. She was considering everything from where she was going to live to whether or not she was going to stay with her boyfriend that she had been dating for years. I had tried to get her to dump him in the hope of helping her experience someone new, but she never did. I suppose I can’t really blame her since there are some real jerks out there. She had been living in Chicago for school and had actually traveled abroad so Los Angeles wasn’t exactly the most exotic location she had ever been. She liked it here, although that might have had more to do with the beach than anything else. It was good for her though. I think she enjoyed the scenery and the sun and just being here opened her eyes to the possibilities she would be facing when she was finished with school. And my brother had only